The crossdressing initiation of a sissy bbc cucko

My fascination with feminine lingerie starts when I find some of wife's worn panties...
Initially I get horny just by look to them, but I had to sniff them soon after and find that smell crazing exciting...I lick them and got even more excited with those panties very very dirty thinking that she had some fun while wearing them...it was like licking her juices mixed with other guys spunk...
The next step it was to try them and find a further level of excitment that has developed when I decide to wear them under my normal male clothing.
Sometimes I thaught that the smell of her cunt will attract some cocks and then I was also developing my submissive sissy boy getting horny by sucking cock...
Well...actually I'm feeling each time more sissy and thinking about my new fascination : BIG BLACK COCK.
Had some before...some months ago in Manchester as again at home near Lisbon.
Since then I've been placing adverts allways looking for some cock to suck and get my bum filled and spunked...
Love that feeling in my ass...and adore when they shoot their milk in my bum...
Now I just wish to continue my sissy training allwzays looking for new big cock to serve...but also keeping the cuckold fantasies to make even more exciting...
Still looking for dominant male female or couple to make me serve them both as their sissy maid...and open for all suggestions to continue my sissification process...