My Seductive Secret (True Story)

I began to dress like a girl and penetrate myself till I came when no one was home and would walk around like a lady all around the house. I would look at myself in the mirror and masturbate for like an hour. I don't know why I felt like this. (I had long hair for some odd reason around this time, and I would brush it like a girl) A few years earlier I had started to masturbate to she males, and I remember feeling so disgusting. I never thought that maybe I just wanted to be like them.

So finally around the end of January I got a text from that boy across the street. (I always saw him at school, imagining that I could maybe bring it up to him, that I wanted to try what we did in our childhood, but I was too embarrassed, thinking that maybe he was over that, and that it was only a dumb mistake children do) the text read: "Hey you home?", I texted back "Yeah", He said: "Can i come over?" I said "Yeah" I didn't know what to think, I wasn't thinking anything. I was just watching a movie in the living room while my brother played video games in our room. I just thought he wanted to hang out. However, this late? (C'mon that realization did not go through my head) My heart started to beat fast for some reason. I let him in my house and I brought him to my brother's room. I just left them both there. I resumed my movie, 5 min later he sits right next to me and we're both watching the movie. Until he asks if I want to go outside, I said what for? He said so we could chill out and watch the stars shine. (Why didn't I question that?) I said ok, but my mom said it was time to go to bed and that he needed to go home. (it was 11 PM)

So he did and me, my bro, and my mom went to bed, but he kept texting me. Telling me to come outside and that he didn't want to go home. I was thinking maybe his family kicked him out or something, but my mind didn't want to do any real thinking. This was my body just getting up from bed and sneaking outside for him. It was a cold night. I took him to the backyard and we just stood around, no words.